Friday, June 30, 2006

Beetlemania

No-one loves me anymore to comment. Ok, my posts can be pretty boring, sorry.

And this is going to be a short one. I've just comsumed half a bottle of fizz and 2 glasses of whiskey. My Dad and I went for a walk on the heath and we were attacked by a hundred beetles. Not very nice. We weren't the only ones, everyone was screaming and running away! We shot across that heath, faster then ever! A good time to escape to Devon then.

Night night everyone out there. Tomorrow will be pretty drunken so maybe no posting but I have loads of photos to show you all, but I never seem to get around to them. It's really hot, as in dripping hot and tonight I believe is going to be uncomfortable. Oh well.

Emy xxx

Wednesday, June 28, 2006

Greetings from Sweating London

Hey everyone! I'm back! Well, it wasn't that long to be fair, but long enough for me to be away from the net! And I'm a much happier bunny then I was a few days back.

Much happier.

Much.

I had a good time at Mary's. We were very relaxed this time, no mad partying hard, almost like grown-ups in fact! The first night we went out to the Happy Man (her local pub, her second home) for the last hour or so and then last night we stayed in! Well, we had to, because I got my retail threapy in Winsor all day yesterday! I missed that in Canterbury, as I stayed all day at KIAD. The only real time where I felt ill was catching the last bus from Winsor to Egham. Mary couldn't find her ticket (one of us had to) and it took her 10 mins to find it. The driver was a complete and utter bastard and was threatening to throw us off the bus. So I tried to help her find it, but failed. So I went back to my seat to get some money to buy her another ticket (as she had no money for it) and then she found it! But he wouldn't except it. He motioned to me to show him my ticket again. He thought that I had given her mine. I was SO ANGRY and threatened to report him, while showing my ticket, shaking with anger and too many expressos at Cafe Nero! I felt the sick the whole journey back, sick and tired, those coffees did the opposite! But apart from that, I took mad pictures, chatted to her flatmate Lisa and had a really good time!

Well, the weather is lovely. Summer has now come and Devon next thursday until the last week of August! Another year of over-grown hedgerows, cows and combining. I can't wait. And then Shropshire for a week, that's when I'll be going off air but will be back with hundreds of photos and I'll keep a diary for that week, cos my memory is terrible (after heavy drug abuse - well, not that bad - at Winchester Art College a few years back - or in fact, just old age!).

Tim Henman is ALREADY out of Wimbledon. Why am I not surprised?! Plus Holland gone from the World Cup (my Mum's dutch) and she said, "Oh well, one down, another to go", but we won't be watching it as we'll be having lunch in Blackheath village with my couisan Saskia (mum's niece) for her Birthday, which is tomorrow. And we are all off to my Mum's best friend Yvonne's house to see my painting which she bought, hung up and framed in the sitting room (she still hasn't paid me yet and I've spent that money three times over already!) and then Dad and I are off to Chartwell for the day to have lunch and spend it in the garden (Winston Churchill's house) because we spent so long in the house last time, that we missed the garden and we are members of the National Trust so it's free!

And now my itunes have reached over 30gb of music, that's 3 weeks worth of music non-stop and 7999 tunes! Just one more for the 8000! I might go and browse itunes for that important one!

Oh well, such is life, mes amies and on that note of the last tune, whatever it may be, I shall leave you and come back tomorrow with crazy pics of Mary and I from the last few days.

Hope you're all well and please say hi with a comment or two!

Emy xxx

Sunday, June 25, 2006

Nightmare X 2

It was a hard night last night. I slept but I had two odd dreams/nightmares:

First one:

I was with my Mum and we were living in a large house in a large town. For some reason the house caught fire and we had to get out. The roof was alight and burning slowly, so we went back in to save stuff. I was in my room grabbing anything I could, stuffing it into bags, fluffy toys, books, photographs, anything that meant a great deal to me. It was all a great rush as I heard the timbers in the roof crack and bang, while smelling the acrid smell of smoke and feeling the intense heat above me. Then I looked down, through gaps in the floor boards and realised the sitting room had caught fire too. So I was trapped. But it didn't scare me at that point, I was so busy saving things, then I realised I wanted to save the crib board that belonged to my great Uncle Jum and that was in the sitting room. So I rushed down and into the fire stricken room, opened all the drawers, searching desprately for it. I found it eventually and then I heard a huge crack and the ceiling above me was beginning to bow from the heat of the flames. I just stood there, looking up, rooted to the spot and then it all came crashing down and I woke up in my bed, my heart pounding and sweat dripping from me. (It took me a while to get to sleep after that, but when I did. . . .)

Second one:

This time I was with my Dad and we had gone to see a famous building somewhere. It was around 500ft high and 200ft across and in order to see it properley someone had rigged up a giant swing, that went round and round the outside of the building on a cable. Something out of a fairground. There was a man controlling it from a little booth and as I had never been there before I was given a go for free, in fact, 15 gos all at the same time. At first it was fun, like being on the Big Wheel, I was flying! I was happy and then I began to feel sick. Suddenly the cables holding the swing began to feel unsafe. It was only then I noticed the cables attached to the swing, in which I was holding, was made of fabric and looked very unsafe. I was going very fast now, up and down and around and I began to shout to get me off. The more I paniced the more unstable the swing became and I felt the swing beginning to break up. At one point there was a 400 ft drop and I felt the string tug and pull and get twisted on itself. Now I was screaming in terror and no-one could hear me. Finally it all began to slow down and I was shouting, swearing, kicking out and as they lowered me to the ground the cable snapped and I fell out, luckily not very far, but it hurt. All the people that were there were shocked and standing there scratching there heads wonderering why that I happened. I was still screaming and now I was shouting,"I'll sue, I'll sue, I'll sue!!" The cheif designers came along to have a look. They were both tiny and very slim and it dawned on me, of course it would have been made out of fabric, not chain or cable, because these two people weighed less then me together. They had designed it for them. I told them saying no wonder it broke as people like myself, such as Dawn French are very fat and heavy!!!! They said sorry and tried to quieten me down with free merchandise from the gift shop, of course I was having none of that. Then the baby started crying next door in the garden and I woke up in my bed.

I still feel rotten, but I'm still going to see Mary tomorrow until Wednesday, I've asked her for a relaxing time, no rushing around or panic. Hopefully that'll be so.

So see you all later in the week some time, or perhaps when I'm with Mary, as I managed to find a computer to do this last time and if anyone knows what those dreams are all about, please leave a comment. I need to spend today quietly and get over them!

Lots of love,

Emy xxx

Saturday, June 24, 2006

KIAD

It's so hot and I'm so hot too. Hot with the sun and hot with hot flushes. I've never felt like this before, I feel faint, dizzy and I feel that I'm not here, but I'm fighting it, whatever strange thing I have because I'm going to stay with Mary on Monday for a few days and I've already let her down once.

KIAD was cool. Even though I had serious butterflies going there and high on asiprin, and luckily I didn't see the people I wanted to avoid. I spent the whole day in KIAD, seeing people, chatting to everyone and half of them didn't recognise me, said I looked different, not a bad thing, I did want that reaction. And they all seem happy, which is a good thing. And nothing has changed, still the same old building, same old people and same old Cedar (looking lovely) on the green, and the same old panic before the opening, people hurrying around getting the last things done, even building walls! Cleaning floors, yet, they were all smiling, all the students smiled at me, whoever they were, where ever they cae out from, much more relaxed then last year. All the BA's exhibiting mounted to 85. 85?! That's a BIG year! And SO much to see and all of it pretty impressive. If anyone reading this finds themselves in Canterbury, go and see the show, it's open until 10th July, an extra week open for extra people showing.

The band under the Cedar (the tree always playing such a big part at the college)


The band were great, a mix of Eastern and Western music. . . a real treat!


The MA BBQ (they made a fortune, why didn't we think of that?)

KIAD



And I even found myself standing in the Warden's flat at one point. Standing in the sitting room, remembering memories and times, now, long gone. 2 girls live there now and one is an MA and she complained about the fire alarm going off at all hours - don't I know it! The walls had been painted white and the spare bed taken away. A coffee table stood in the middle of the room, a high-fi at the side and a hat stand by the door. Vases with flowers and throws on the sofa chair and settie. You can tell 2 girls are living there! Plus the kitchen was full of people beavering away, getting ready the food for their fundraising BBQ at the opening. It brought back a lot of times to me and I felt sad that I wasn't part of it and as Sonia was cutting the vegetables I could see Linda there, Gama, Kelly and Alison, all chatting and laughing away. We all still haunt the college, twice I thought I saw Reem sitting under the cedar or Gao clowning around grinning. Tucker and Roy sitting out smoking with Fi, ready with her HUGE black sports bag to go to the gym after. John coming up to them, plugged into his mp3 player and myself sitting among them enjoying the hot weather. Oh happy days!

Emy xxx

Thursday, June 22, 2006

I Shall Go In Green

Hello, I promise no more silly Beatle questionaires! And I'm sorry for the larger pictures, thing is I can't be bothered to get rid of them, I'm that lazy.

Today I've just been getting myself together for tomorrow at KIAD. I don't know if anyone else feels like this, but you know when you haven't been back to somewhere where you haven't been a long time, that you'd like to make a good impression, that in some way you may have changed and you want to appear relaxed and self confident, that you're back and you're happy and ok? Well, that's how I feel. I've always imagined myself going back to KIAD, thin, beautiful and with a hansome man on my arm, but hey! These things never be. It's going to be the same old me, fatter then I like, boring looking (not that ugly, but still need a bit of work) and with no man in sight, apart from my Dad. That's why I NEVER went back to Winchester and now I'm going back to KIAD. But as always I keep thinking, well, this is not the end yet, I'm still going back there on the 8th Sept for the MA show, I have a little time to make myself thin and beautiful and maybe find a man, but then again, it won't happen, it NEVER happens like that, it'll just be the same old me again. . .

And there are a certain few people who I DON'T want to see, and so I'll be giving them a wide berth, a couple of tutors and a few students. Fine, I'll be civil if I have to, but that's my lot!

So I've painted my nails green, I have a green top to go over smart jeans and I have a green necklace (the same I wore for my MA show), for some reason I'm always wearing green at KIAD, it brings out the greeness in me! I'll wear my jeans for the daytime with a different top and I'm going to take a bag with my other clothes, shoes and make-up upon which I'll change into in the car in the car park! Now I need my flat back! A flat that served me and my friends so well in Canterbury, basically a stones throw from the college, as my window looked right into my head of MA's office! (I could have broken the window!)

I'm so tired today, I seem to be tired every day. I feel relaxed but still on edge for some reason, that cross-between place. Butterflies for tomorrow I feel, I'm worried about drinking as I haven't had much to drink now for a few weeks and I AM now a light weight, I just hope I won't make a fool of myself over the free wine at the opening, yes, I'm still talking about the opening!
Let us hope the sun shines!

To finish off my self pity (I noticed that too) here are some pictures taken yesterday, on my walk with my Dad, across the heath, on the longest day. The weather was strange, the wind strong and the colours of the sky stormy, but the swifts were enjoying themselves, swooping low over the heath and our heads!


The first glimpse of that cloud

Wow that cloud!

The swifts were camera shy!

Any suggestions what this shape may be?

And still that cloud

The sky was more purple then this

Close up

I'll see you all, possibly on Saturday, depending on the hangover!

Wish me luck at KIAD. Calm, cool and sophisticated . . . . . . . . . . . . !

Emy xxx










Wednesday, June 21, 2006

Whoops. . . What Happened There?!

Right, not sure why below is so big and going off the page? Anyone got any ideas why?

Have I over- dosed on The Beatles perhaps?

Yes.

(!)

E x

Just To Drive It Home I AM THE BIGGEST BEATLES FAN EVER!!!!!!!!!!!

Lady Madonna
You scored 32 shyness, 25 bitterness, 51 moral, and 35 eccentric!
You are Lady Madonna! This single was a celebration of motherhood. Whether you're a parent or not, you probably are an average, mature person, just trying to make your way through this world. You have your modest pleasures, but for the most part you're occupied with responsibilities, doing the right thing, and taking care of people close to you.


DIE-HARD FAN
96% Beatles Fan.
You know the Beatles...well. Some may even call you fanatical. You've probablly seen all the movies, listened to all the music, and read some of the books. But who ever said that was a bad thing?



My test tracked 1 variable How you compared to other people your age and gender:
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You scored higher than 86% on Knowledge
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"Lady Madonna, children at your feet.
Wonder how you manage to make ends meet.
Who finds the money, when you pay the rent?
Did you think that money was heaven sent?" - 'Lady Madonna'




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You scored higher than 47% on bitterness
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You scored higher than 19% on moral
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You scored higher than 49% on eccentric
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Expert
You scored 95% Expertise!
You Are A Beatles Expert. Congratulations on having good musical taste and so much beautiful knowledge on the greatest band of all time.




My test tracked 1 variable How you compared to other people your age and gender:
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You scored higher than 66% on Expertise
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Totally fab!
You scored 90% knowledge!
What are you? Some sort of nut? Why do you know all this stuff? Congratulations on passing my test but you really need to get out more...err...never mind what it says about me that I created the test. That's irrelevant as we're talking about you!

Honestly, well done.




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You scored higher than 77% on knowledge
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George's Bud
You are 26% John, 6% Paul, 64% George, and 18% Ringo.
You have the most in common with George Harrison. He was the lead guitarist for the Beatles. You are probably easy-going but stop to think things through. You are cultured and want to learn things about philosophy and stuff. You are spiritual. You are probably into drugs. You are a joker who can be very serious too. If you scored really high as George's Bud, then you probably like cars as well!



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You scored higher than 0% on Paul
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You scored higher than 95% on George
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The Beatles, then, now, and forever! You scored 93%




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Hard Day's Night
72% Survival Rate!
Please visit The Beatles Fan Fiction Directory



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Ok, that was just to get it ALL out of my system and I've got a feeling that I'm going to go through a Beatles period now! Oh well, what can you do?!

E xxx

Still The World's Number 1 Beatle Fan!!!!!!!!

Exhausted.

So just a linky blog today.

Exhausted mainly from that England match last night. We're not going to win anyway. It was the worst 90 mins of my life. Can you see why I hate football so? And Owen is out of the World Cup as well! We are screwed!

Mole in One A very silly game, and a rather slow one, but kind of calming as it has sounds of birds in the background! (I'm that tired)

Army screw up Yes, very funny and all that and from who's army is it? Any suggestions?

Srange things you Likely Didn't know A mish mash of facts like 'Chewing gum while peeling onions will keep you from crying (I must try that, I'll let you know. . .)

Interpret Your Dreams Funny, I wrote a whole essay about my dream yesterday and all I got were a few words to watch out for because they mean this in your life!

Lennon reincarnated
You scored 96%
You live, breathe and quite possibly are John Lennon. You worship the speakers his voice comes out of. You take holidays in Liverpool just because he has walked the streets there - hell, you re-mortgaged your house to buy a Rolls Royce and sold your granny to have it decorated in the groovy psychodelic style! You have my full respect.




My test tracked 1 variable How you compared to other people your age and gender:
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You scored higher than 90% on Knowledge
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Wow, well, I kind of figured that already, I do know about John Lennon's life having read hundreds of biographies and books about the chap and having been a major fan of The Beatles since I was 11 (it peaked at around 17 when I had Beatlemania in EVERYTHING) But that was almost 10 years ago, it's amazing what you remember and what you forget. I'm just annoyed I only got 96%, 10 years ago I would have got 110%!!!!!!

French Guard
You scored 64 Pythonesque!
Bon! You are...how you say...quite knowledgable; however, you cannot enter ze realm of true Monty Python fans yet. You know ze basics, but those obscure questions left you in deep doo-doo. Watch ze movies again and again...watch ze show...then perhaps we may let you into our elite little club! Now...scat, or I will fetche la vache!!



My test tracked 1 variable How you compared to other people your age and gender
Oh well I didn't do too bad and to tell you the truth I don't know 'The Meaning of Life' too well!
I read the biography of the Pythons (Mary gave it to me for Christmas) and I've seen the other films quite a lot, but not for a while.

You are 100% a Beatles Lyrics Master!
No categories here. Your percentage is simply how many you got right. Each question was worth the same amount.

So, if your score is low, then I recommend listening to some more Beatles music. And classic rock in general!

If your score is high, then great! Keep up the appareciation of good music.




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You scored higher than 71% on Beatles Mastery
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Well, OBVIOUSLY!!!!!! 110% EVERY TIME!!!!!

And on that note I shall say goodbye!

Emy xxx

Tuesday, June 20, 2006

A Few Strange Photographs!

What is it with me and shoes? I don't ever strive out to buy them, it just happens! We went to Bluewater yesterday and I ended up with 3 new pairs, 2 sandals and a pair of canvas trainers/plimsoils type thing! Not to mention 7 books for my summer reading and a new outfit to wear for the show on Friday which I'm looking forward too so much! And then not to mention a few cds too!

Speaking of cds, I've now listened to Keane's new album 'Under the Iron Sea' quite a few times and it's brilliant! As in so good that some even made me cry! That and Coldplay's 'X&Y' which I've always wanted and got yesterday in the sale of HMV. It makes me wonder how 'we' put up with all that bad music in the world when you have something truely magical, an anthem in almost every song! So I didn't get much sleep last night, plus the fact that I successfully broke my detox good and proper last night. I did so well the whole day! My Mum also made our detox lunch before we went and took it in the freezer bag - the only downside was, as it was crispbread and humus, it kind of got really wet and it tasted like soggey cardboard! Not very nice! And then they were wroking on the railway last night too, around 3am. We saw them the other night on our walk, further up the track. So back on to the detox today until friday. I've been in touch with my friend Laury there and she said that the MA/MFA's will be there all day fundraising for their show on friday, they're cashing in with the voloume of people coming with a BBQ!

Working on the railway (18th), a rather spooky photo!

The next few pictures are my fav types of photography and especially with a digital camera as it's always 3 seconds or so slow! So you never know what you're taking or how it would turn out! Going home from Bluewater on the motorway, just after sunset and taking pictures of the skies surrounding the road. I don't care if they're fuzzy and out of focus, I really like the spontaniety of them. See what you think:















Tulip's tunnel - my cat from years ago, everytime we drove her to the cattery in Sidcup we had to go through this tunnel and she was always fascinated by the bright lights (and I'm sure a little frightened) and she used to meow! So eveytime we go under it I think of her!

And one last thing, my friend Mary doesn't hate me, she has suggested I come next mon/tue/wed which will be fine, just have to be extra careful on what I eat and drink!

Lots of love to you all,

Emy xxx